Going the Distance

Friday is the test. I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. Whether I should actually go to law school or not. I don't care. I have to finish what I started. All i know is I have to finish this test, its just one thing I know I have to do. A lot of bad things have happened to me these past few years and this is just one last thing I have to do. Have you ever seen Rocky I? It is actually one of my favorite movies, and it may sound stupid. It had a number of stupid sequels following it cheapening its image... but the first movie was a masterpiece and an oscar winner for best picture. The movie had a grim philly feeling of a loser with a fleeting career and nothing to show. He was given a one in a million chance to prove himself. His only wish was to be able to go the distance for his own pride.

Is society becoming "stupider"?

Sometimes I have the audacity to flip on basic cable television thinking something decent will be on only to be further proven that peoples' interests have become deranged, depressing, and formulaic. The craze of reality television has proven it wasn't just a craze that brought in ratings for a few seasons, but it has proven that it is here to stay. At the time of Joe Millionaire, Survivor I, and Big Brother I these were actually fresh creative ideas at the dawn of reality tv, but that creative spirit has faded away into non stop rotations of indistinguishable, mindless nonsense spit off of an assembly line. Flipping through the stations i can safely predict to see: countless singing/dancing competitions, fake shows documenting E-list celebrities' every day lives, and non-stop mindless dating shows on multiple networks (some of these can be particularly disheartening- I love New York, Parental Control, etc). Reality tv has essentially become the amateur porn of television. Producers no longer have to spend money on expensive actors and sets or think up creative plots, dialogues, screenplays. They simply just use the same regurgitated formula and film it with a shitty camera. But, "why does this work" I cry? Why don't the consumers stand up and say I won't watch this garbage? Well... the problem lies in the fact that they find it utterly entertaining, and that is why I am so concerned that people may be becoming "stupider".

It's nearly October

Nothing phases me anymore, I should have found a job wtf was I thinking about grad school? My masturbation addiction is my only sense of normalcy and the LSAT.... I think studying for it has become more for my own entertainment than a career path. I have began masturbating to things that my adolescent self would have even been disgusted with. I have no interest in television, human women, foods other than burger king, curtailing my smoking, or exercising. Am I numb?

Loss

I decided today to go to the osteopath to get a prescription for something that has been plaguing me for some time...

When I was younger I saw my brother's hair thin, my father's hair thin, and I always thought it would never happen to me. My junior year of high school I decided to cut my hair really short for wrestling. Little did I know that it would reveal a painful reality. Upon shearing off my hair there was a difference in density between the sides and crown of my hair. I was a victim of male pattern baldness. Baldness is a death sentence for a young man. It is not something like being fat for a girl. You can lose weight or put on makeup if you are ugly! Baldness is an inevitable loss in attractiveness for a man. A male model can be relegated to the status of creepy old man just because of missing hair follicles. Many women won't date bald men or even think about dating bald men. Bald men can't wear certain clothing... it would just look weird for a bald man to be in a really trendy young person shirt no matter what age. Do you think it looks cool for a bald man to be in an expensive business suit? It is unstoppable in men who have the gene, like forces of gravity or your next bowel movement. Drugs and surgery are only slowing down the certainly inevitable and making it more costly. It is not fair and more money needs to be spent to end baldness once and for all.







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Welcome!

Please sit down, take your pants off, have a cigarette, perhaps masturbate to a porn video on an adjacent site. We are all friends here.

First things first, I am interested in the responses to these question which I have put together. If you are interested in responding to this feel free, but PLEASE don't feel forced.

1. Have you ever had strangely perverse fantasies that even you were ashamed of?
2. Considered suicide?
3. Thought that you knew a lot of things everyone else didn't know and it was only a matter of time before everyone found out?
4. Tasted your own poop?
5. Had sex with a perfect 10?
6. Had the best day of your life, or do you believe that is even possible?
7. Considered plastic surgery?
8. Had fantasies about having sex with your boss/teacher/mom's friend?
9. Cried by yourself?
10. Watched someone else become more successful, and it made you angry?



Everyone seems to think they are so different, when in fact they are not.



Well it is currently very late and I have LSAT class tomorrow. Good evening.




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