house arrest

it kindof sucks that i have to wait for the summer to end before im free. it really sucks actually. when i run errands or work out I see pretty girls in hot outfits and i get angry. i never really got a lot of girls before anyways though. i was always a shy guy deep down. but at least i could be around them more. i feel like im getting older all the time, i work out to prevent it. i think it works though. i look a lot better than when i got out of jail. i was really upset about what happened to my body, but it was hard to control. the weird thing was there were really no mirrors to see yourself. so strange. i just have to focus on the future, but i have a subtle feeling of pessimism. when will i finally get out. maybe that should be my focus. independence.